Why Me

I often ask God why me!  Why do I have to endure so much and receive so little.  I constently find myself wallowing in dispear and giving up before the fight has begun.  And I still ask why me!  When I ask others why me why am I always enduring storms.  They respond that as a child of God you will endeaur trials and tribulations.  That comment (no matter how many times it has been uttered) has always went over my head.  I still couldn't understand why "I" had to continously have trials and tribulations while my peers around me seem to be moving along just fine. 

It wasn't until Saturday I was actually presented with an answer that didn't baffle me.  In Bible Study Saturday afternoon we read Hebrews 12:3-17.  It broke the "why me" down quite well.  It basically stated that as being a child of God you have to be disciplined such as you would discipline your own children when they aren't doing the right things. He loves us as we are his children and when we are out of line he has to "spare the rod."  LOL! 

So in reading these verses I must reflect on what I am doing that is not in line with what God is trying to teach me.  It has to be something I am missing in order for me to continue to get these ass whoopings. Sometimes it seems like a never ending switch session,One Swat after Another!    While I learn what it is I am doing wrong I am now going to stop saying WHY ME!  I now know "why" but now I need to know the "WHAT".  But as I figure this out I will continue to thank God for loving me enough to care about the road I am walking and the mistakes I am making.